My reality is different than yours

I’m fascinated by eyes. All the colors. All the shapes. How you can speak with them without moving your mouth and saying one word. I’m just fascinated.

laurenislost asked: Oh my gosh! I'm excited for you. Nobody that I know likes to draw. But now that I know you're giving it a try, I'm so happy. I'm not even kidding. We should go to the lake & draw nature. Sarah, too :)

That sounds like the best day ever! We are seriously planning one. I want to get better and better and have my thoughts go crazy of creativeness!

laurenislost asked: just come to my house maygay. you will get inspired from being in my room :) too many books, too many art supplies. lets paint together one day.

please please! You can show me some drawing tricks (: I bought a sketchbook today and already have started drawing!

I want my mind to develop an intense creative side. Where all I crave is anything to do with the arts.

I’m not sure why I’ve stopped taking advantage of tumblr when it comes to typing out my thoughts. It’s 2am exactly and I have insomia. My ankle and knee are throbbing and I oddly don’t mind the pain because it’s been feeling this way for the past couple hours now. I never really noticed how you can vividly hear the crickets outside chirping away. Curious if they’re communicating with each other or do they just know that there are some humans out there that find their chirping somewhat relaxing. I’d say it’s mesmerizing. Well it is now 2:02am and I suppose I’ll continue to tumble or maybe just continue to sit in my bed and ponder my thoughts on my future. goodnight world.

Sometimes I just want to be that girl that disappears, internally gets herself together, and leave people wondering what happened to me. Then when they see me one day shopping by myself (which I find the best way to shop) they will think “wow she’s different”. That is the exact kind of reaction I want out of people.